I decided that writing was really important to my progress, so I have returned :)
The next track is one that really hits home for me, the colors in it are just perfect in every single way for the way I currently feel as well which helps.
I know this place
It smells like innocence lost
We left the traces of the sins we bought
But I wouldn't change a thing
It's just waking dream
Look at the wake
From the stardust pouring from your eyes
It's no mistake
You are perfect
You are perfect in my mind
And you won't fade away
I know this face
It's so familiar
I'm sure I know you but it's all a blur
Now I can't recall a thing
It's such a wicked dream
Look at the wake
From the stardust pouring from your eyes
It's no mistake
You are perfect
You are perfect in my mind
And you won't fade away
Praise to the memory
Living inside of me
Host to entirety writing my story
Lusting and gluttony
So unbecoming
The stardust is making me blind
But you won't be left behind, the memory's here to remind
Look at the wake
From the stardust pouring from your eyes
It's no mistake
You are perfect
You are perfect in my mind
Look at the wake
From the stardust pouring from your eyes
It's no mistake
You are perfect
You are perfect
Look at the
Look at the wake pouring from your eyes
Look at the
Look at the wake
You are perfect in my mind
And you won't fade away
Tuesday, November 19, 2019
Wednesday, November 13, 2019
Taking A Break
I've written about a lot of different aspects of my life here lately, and wanted to take pause so I can take stock of all the things in my life.
At present I have a lot going on and need to give myself time to adjust and recalibrate to what is not only going around me, but also the things that I know I need to focus on. At the moment this blog takes a backseat to that.
Thank you all for reading, and hopefully I'll be back posting soon.
-- Rainye
I leave you with this black and white track. Enjoy!
At present I have a lot going on and need to give myself time to adjust and recalibrate to what is not only going around me, but also the things that I know I need to focus on. At the moment this blog takes a backseat to that.
Thank you all for reading, and hopefully I'll be back posting soon.
-- Rainye
I leave you with this black and white track. Enjoy!
Monday, November 11, 2019
Collisions...
Every time I listen to music I get a sense of the song from a different perspective. It's like I can listen to the same track several times and get several other things from it. I learn something new about myself in this process.
This next track does exactly that for me, it opened up a side to me I did not see before. A level of understanding for me as I took this journey:
I have drawn a graphic that incorporates what I see, it is not very detailed, but what it represents is important to me to reflect:
As if anything could last forever
I fell headfirst into the unknown
Blindly ignorant in my innocence
Thin in the thick of it
Would give anything not to feel alone
I severed every nerve ending
'Til nothing was hurting me
Aside from the thought of infinite eternities
Not having you with me, not having you with me
So incomplete
As the track begins, I see a light green road before me. It feels like home and tastes like oranges. As I walk down this road, I glance to my left and see the stars shining in a neon green array. It gives me a sense of peace that calms my mind. There are aspects that give me flashes of red, I have highlighted these. As they reflect a sense of understanding
I fell in love with the touch of pain
'Til the rush it became a chain
I was suffocated and there was no escape
'Til I met You
Now the Breaker of My Chains is breaking through
I fell in love with the touch of grace
Now all I want is You
As the chorus hits, I see a purple chain link on my right it reflects all of the things that have bound me for so long, then quick as a flash, I see a green lightning bolt that separates the chain link and sparks of silver that shine in the distance.
This is repeated several times for me as I walk down the road.
I always thought that I had something to prove
Always thought that I had nothing to lose
Every time that I got more it just made me want more
Tried to step up but I stepped off the top floor
I've surely fallen one too many times
I've surely told you one too many lies
Life-giver delivering me from the clutches of death
I give over all of myself
I fell in love with the touch of pain
'Til the rush it became a chain
I was suffocated and there was no escape
'Til I met You
Now the Breaker of My Chains is breaking through
I fell in love with the touch of grace
Now all I want is You
At this point in the track, the purple chain fades into a haze of silvery light, my attention then drifts to center of frame and I see a light purple building at the end of the road. It shines with a green radiance surrounding it as I move towards it I feel a sense of home.
You put a stay on this heart attack
Put color back in this photograph
Made it burn like a sun with a fire that is You
Cursed me as an amnesiac
No second thought about going back
Take me anywhere as long as it's with You
I fell in love with the touch of pain
'Til the rush it became a chain
I was suffocated and there was no escape
'Til I met You
Now the Breaker of My Chains is breaking through
I fell in love with the touch of grace
Now all I want is You
The green and purple collision results in a shimmer of silver, that shines until the song fades from view. Every time I hear this track I feel those same emotions become stronger. It is like a never ending loop of peace.
This next track does exactly that for me, it opened up a side to me I did not see before. A level of understanding for me as I took this journey:
I have drawn a graphic that incorporates what I see, it is not very detailed, but what it represents is important to me to reflect:
As if anything could last forever
I fell headfirst into the unknown
Blindly ignorant in my innocence
Thin in the thick of it
Would give anything not to feel alone
I severed every nerve ending
'Til nothing was hurting me
Aside from the thought of infinite eternities
Not having you with me, not having you with me
So incomplete
As the track begins, I see a light green road before me. It feels like home and tastes like oranges. As I walk down this road, I glance to my left and see the stars shining in a neon green array. It gives me a sense of peace that calms my mind. There are aspects that give me flashes of red, I have highlighted these. As they reflect a sense of understanding
I fell in love with the touch of pain
'Til the rush it became a chain
I was suffocated and there was no escape
'Til I met You
Now the Breaker of My Chains is breaking through
I fell in love with the touch of grace
Now all I want is You
As the chorus hits, I see a purple chain link on my right it reflects all of the things that have bound me for so long, then quick as a flash, I see a green lightning bolt that separates the chain link and sparks of silver that shine in the distance.
This is repeated several times for me as I walk down the road.
I always thought that I had something to prove
Always thought that I had nothing to lose
Every time that I got more it just made me want more
Tried to step up but I stepped off the top floor
I've surely fallen one too many times
I've surely told you one too many lies
Life-giver delivering me from the clutches of death
I give over all of myself
I fell in love with the touch of pain
'Til the rush it became a chain
I was suffocated and there was no escape
'Til I met You
Now the Breaker of My Chains is breaking through
I fell in love with the touch of grace
Now all I want is You
At this point in the track, the purple chain fades into a haze of silvery light, my attention then drifts to center of frame and I see a light purple building at the end of the road. It shines with a green radiance surrounding it as I move towards it I feel a sense of home.
You put a stay on this heart attack
Put color back in this photograph
Made it burn like a sun with a fire that is You
Cursed me as an amnesiac
No second thought about going back
Take me anywhere as long as it's with You
I fell in love with the touch of pain
'Til the rush it became a chain
I was suffocated and there was no escape
'Til I met You
Now the Breaker of My Chains is breaking through
I fell in love with the touch of grace
Now all I want is You
The green and purple collision results in a shimmer of silver, that shines until the song fades from view. Every time I hear this track I feel those same emotions become stronger. It is like a never ending loop of peace.
..Tasting The Real Rainbow?
For a couple of days recently I have noticed when things get to me enough I start tasting colors. Especially when I touch them. So as I feel a colored object such as a keyboard for instance at my computer here, I can actually taste salt every time I hit the keys. It's a really strange sensation.
Especially when it's combined with music. Because I feel both at the same time.
I've recently managed to put this chart together of what I taste for each color, although there may be other tastes associated with them as I explore this further.
Blue - Coconut
Green - Oranges
Black - Salt
White - Pork
Orange - Sour
Brown - Dry Ginger
Especially when it's combined with music. Because I feel both at the same time.
I've recently managed to put this chart together of what I taste for each color, although there may be other tastes associated with them as I explore this further.
Blue - Coconut
Green - Oranges
Black - Salt
White - Pork
Orange - Sour
Brown - Dry Ginger
Red - Dust
Yellow - Milk
Purple - Chocolate
Silver - Purest Apple Juice
As this is something I am still exploring I will most likely touch on this subject again in the future.
I'm going to finish this post with a Green track. This song actually tastes like oranges as I listen to it. It's a very interesting mix!!
Yellow - Milk
Purple - Chocolate
Silver - Purest Apple Juice
As this is something I am still exploring I will most likely touch on this subject again in the future.
I'm going to finish this post with a Green track. This song actually tastes like oranges as I listen to it. It's a very interesting mix!!
Sunday, November 10, 2019
Darkness Cannot Exist Without The Light
I realize yesterdays' post didn't really reflect how I felt so I wanted to give a chance to describe it.
Black colored music is very hard for me to explain because it is a sense of the color, a depth of the color. It's like having all shadows fall upon everything I do, it clouds my emotional view as well.
It's like receding into oneself' on an emotional level, withdrawing, yet understanding the reasons why. It provides a moment of solace and rechargability for me as an introvert as well as for the sake of the feelings at the time. Sometimes these feelings can get quite overwhelming when meshed with my emotional personality.
These two work against each other at times, making it difficult for me to pinpoint exactly what it is I feel, or why I feel that way. In a state of depression everything turns gray and black for me. Which makes sharing those aspects very stressful at times. It is like shouting from the bottom of a well 3000 ft below ground and expecting a reply.
I have since then learned to understand this further. The color Black can also be associated with coping with things internally for me. It is reflected in the lyrics of the music I listen to, such as Rammstein, (but only specific tracks, that usually hold a softer meaning, such as Mutter and Spieluhr), the lyrics along with the tones of the track give me a sense of understanding and contemplation.
Because as darkness unfolds, there must be light that follows. As such whenever Black feelings arise within me, they are met at the other end of the scale with a sense of illumination. It is a soul-seeking journey of sorts inflected in the colors.
It is also where the color White is predominant for me. White is associated with a lot of different aspects, I discovered however that it is resolution itself. It is confirmation. It is also something I had yet to experience until recently. I noticed this always followed a "Black" day and began trying to understand why that was.
I believe it is because I finally understand its purpose.
This song is Black and White:
This next writing piece is black and white to me.
Traveling south across this plain,
Is he exploring, or just gone insane?
Seeking hope in unknown spaces,
He has never beheld these places.
The search for truth upon his brow,
Looks abound, as he makes this solemn vow.
Finding in it in an unknown world,
As the road bent, curled,
This new life unfurled.
Black colored music is very hard for me to explain because it is a sense of the color, a depth of the color. It's like having all shadows fall upon everything I do, it clouds my emotional view as well.
It's like receding into oneself' on an emotional level, withdrawing, yet understanding the reasons why. It provides a moment of solace and rechargability for me as an introvert as well as for the sake of the feelings at the time. Sometimes these feelings can get quite overwhelming when meshed with my emotional personality.
These two work against each other at times, making it difficult for me to pinpoint exactly what it is I feel, or why I feel that way. In a state of depression everything turns gray and black for me. Which makes sharing those aspects very stressful at times. It is like shouting from the bottom of a well 3000 ft below ground and expecting a reply.
I have since then learned to understand this further. The color Black can also be associated with coping with things internally for me. It is reflected in the lyrics of the music I listen to, such as Rammstein, (but only specific tracks, that usually hold a softer meaning, such as Mutter and Spieluhr), the lyrics along with the tones of the track give me a sense of understanding and contemplation.
Because as darkness unfolds, there must be light that follows. As such whenever Black feelings arise within me, they are met at the other end of the scale with a sense of illumination. It is a soul-seeking journey of sorts inflected in the colors.
It is also where the color White is predominant for me. White is associated with a lot of different aspects, I discovered however that it is resolution itself. It is confirmation. It is also something I had yet to experience until recently. I noticed this always followed a "Black" day and began trying to understand why that was.
I believe it is because I finally understand its purpose.
This song is Black and White:
This next writing piece is black and white to me.
Traveling south across this plain,
Is he exploring, or just gone insane?
Seeking hope in unknown spaces,
He has never beheld these places.
The search for truth upon his brow,
Looks abound, as he makes this solemn vow.
Finding in it in an unknown world,
As the road bent, curled,
This new life unfurled.
Friday, November 8, 2019
Into The Darkness...
Certain moods switch my musical taste to darker tones. For me these songs have a depth of Red and Black overtones.
This song in particular is very dark to me, yet it resonates with me on a level probably no one will ever understand. It's also reflected in the lyrics (English Translation):
(it) wanted to be completely alone
the small heart stood still for hours
so they declared it dead
it is buried in wet sand
with a music box in its hand
The first snow that covered the grave
woke the child very gently
in a cold winter night
the small heart is awakened
As the frost flew into the child
it wound up the music box
a melody in the wind
and the child sings from the ground
Bumpety bump, rider
and no angel climbs down
my heart does not beat any longer
only the rain cries at the grave
Bumpety bump, rider
a melody in the wind
my heart does not beat any longer
and the child sings from the ground
The cold moon, in full magnificence
hears the cries in the night
and no angel climbs down
only the rain cries at the grave
Between hard oak boards
it will play with the music box
a melody in the wind
and the child sings from the ground
Bumpety bump, rider
and no angel climbs down
my heart does not beat anymore
only the rain cries on the grave
up and down, rider
a melody in the wind
my heart does not beat anymore
and the child sings from the ground
Bumpety bump, rider
my heart does not beat any longer
On Totensonntag* they heard this
melody from God's field [i.e., a cemetery]
then they unearthed it
they saved the small heart in the child
Bumpety bump, rider
a melody in the wind
my heart does not beat any longer
and the child sings on the ground
Bumpety bump, rider
and no angel climbs down
my heart does not beat any longer
only the rain cries at the grave
This song in particular is very dark to me, yet it resonates with me on a level probably no one will ever understand. It's also reflected in the lyrics (English Translation):
Music Box
A small person just pretends to die(it) wanted to be completely alone
the small heart stood still for hours
so they declared it dead
it is buried in wet sand
with a music box in its hand
The first snow that covered the grave
woke the child very gently
in a cold winter night
the small heart is awakened
As the frost flew into the child
it wound up the music box
a melody in the wind
and the child sings from the ground
Bumpety bump, rider
and no angel climbs down
my heart does not beat any longer
only the rain cries at the grave
Bumpety bump, rider
a melody in the wind
my heart does not beat any longer
and the child sings from the ground
The cold moon, in full magnificence
hears the cries in the night
and no angel climbs down
only the rain cries at the grave
Between hard oak boards
it will play with the music box
a melody in the wind
and the child sings from the ground
Bumpety bump, rider
and no angel climbs down
my heart does not beat anymore
only the rain cries on the grave
up and down, rider
a melody in the wind
my heart does not beat anymore
and the child sings from the ground
Bumpety bump, rider
my heart does not beat any longer
On Totensonntag* they heard this
melody from God's field [i.e., a cemetery]
then they unearthed it
they saved the small heart in the child
Bumpety bump, rider
a melody in the wind
my heart does not beat any longer
and the child sings on the ground
Bumpety bump, rider
and no angel climbs down
my heart does not beat any longer
only the rain cries at the grave
Thursday, November 7, 2019
The Purple Road
I've touched on several different aspects of music and color recently. I wanted to highlight one that is incredibly special and important to me.
That is the color purple. Purple has a significant meaning for me. I had reflected that in earlier posts, but I wanted to have this shine through as it does for me.
This song is the most Purple track I have ever encountered. It is like walking down a purple road barefoot, The first verse gives me a feeling of belonging, a sense of purpose as if everything has just fallen into place. As the chorus hits, the purple strobes from dark to light, as it shifts I feel an intense feeling of warmth and closeness. Every footstep is like a shock pulse, it starts in my feet and rebounds around me. It is almost undefinable, magical, exhilarating, captivating, yet peaceful.
It gives me a lesson in self, that I am beyond worth. Not just belonging to someone, but belonging to self as well. An inner strength that I can use to broadcast who I am. It is truly inspiring.
Feel like I'm staring at the sun but I feel no pain
Got a feeling in my heart that I can't explain
These walls I've built, they all fall down to you
Head it's a rush like a river that burns through me
I get caught in your tide like I can't believe
You hold me like an open fire in you
And my heart beats loud like a thousand drums
Feeling love like the city where I come from
I've got a hole in my heart that I can't explain for you
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
You set me on fire... you set me on fire
You set me on fire... you set me on fire
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
Whoa-u-u-u-u... u-u-u-u.
I've been everywhere on earth and I still can't find
I'm feeling like a past to your blinding light
These doors i've locked they all open for you
Head it's a rushes like a river that burns through me
I get caught in your tide like I can't believe
You hold me like an open fire in you
And my voice sings loud like a thousand drums
Feeling love like the city where I come from
I've got a hole in my heart that I can't explain for you
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
You set me on fire... you set me on fire
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
Burn me with your love so bright
Burn me like an open fire
Burn me with your love so bright
So I can feel you... I can feel you...
Burn me with your love so bright
Burn me like an open fire
Burn me with your love so bright
So I can feel you... I can feel you...
That is the color purple. Purple has a significant meaning for me. I had reflected that in earlier posts, but I wanted to have this shine through as it does for me.
This song is the most Purple track I have ever encountered. It is like walking down a purple road barefoot, The first verse gives me a feeling of belonging, a sense of purpose as if everything has just fallen into place. As the chorus hits, the purple strobes from dark to light, as it shifts I feel an intense feeling of warmth and closeness. Every footstep is like a shock pulse, it starts in my feet and rebounds around me. It is almost undefinable, magical, exhilarating, captivating, yet peaceful.
It gives me a lesson in self, that I am beyond worth. Not just belonging to someone, but belonging to self as well. An inner strength that I can use to broadcast who I am. It is truly inspiring.
Feel like I'm staring at the sun but I feel no pain
Got a feeling in my heart that I can't explain
These walls I've built, they all fall down to you
Head it's a rush like a river that burns through me
I get caught in your tide like I can't believe
You hold me like an open fire in you
And my heart beats loud like a thousand drums
Feeling love like the city where I come from
I've got a hole in my heart that I can't explain for you
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
You set me on fire... you set me on fire
You set me on fire... you set me on fire
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
Whoa-u-u-u-u... u-u-u-u.
I've been everywhere on earth and I still can't find
I'm feeling like a past to your blinding light
These doors i've locked they all open for you
Head it's a rushes like a river that burns through me
I get caught in your tide like I can't believe
You hold me like an open fire in you
And my voice sings loud like a thousand drums
Feeling love like the city where I come from
I've got a hole in my heart that I can't explain for you
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
You set me on fire... you set me on fire
And you set me on fire... you set me on fire
Burn me with your love so bright
Burn me like an open fire
Burn me with your love so bright
So I can feel you... I can feel you...
Burn me with your love so bright
Burn me like an open fire
Burn me with your love so bright
So I can feel you... I can feel you...
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